Center of the World

Job-hunt

2011-06-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today I might have just gotten an offer from sheer personality. Not experience. Not academic accomplishment. Not even based on an IQ test. And it is scary.

It's one thing when the expectation from you is intellectual-- that can be done, or, as my Eagle classmate once told me, you can bluff brilliance. Integirty is another thing altogether. For one, the workplace does not necessarily define the rules to all possible situations that could compromise one's ethics.Increasingly, there are right channels that one can go to, but questions like : is it my duty to report this when everybody knows about it? what if I lose my job? -- make it difficult to do the right thing.

I know myself -- and I tend to see in black in white. If I see something wrong, I will exhaust everything in my authority to correct it. And I'm not afraid to lose my job -- like I need to say it aloud.

Shine

2011-06-30T23:20:00.001+08:00

Two radiant light,
Equally graceful, hypnotic majesty
Molten copper grace, the brilliance of silver
In marriage pales to solitary splendor.

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I don't remember when or why I wrote this. Embracing spinster-ship?

Superficial

2007-02-21T16:27:00.001+08:00

In the silence of shadows lie
a thousand thoughts
Spring is heavy with regretful growth
A stillness lives in the thrashing of the waves
A smile is painted by sadness too deep for tears.

Nothing is ever as it looks.

A not-so-recent random thought

2007-02-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

Falling Apart

When your heart makes a grand somersault, you cannot really stop from falling. And when your mind starts to spin, there’s no stopping the momentum. When you start to fall apart, the pieces will break no matter how you fight it.

So if you need to fall apart, fall apart into a million pieces - - it does not mean that you are brittle. It does not mean that you are any less strong. It does not even mean that you are defeated. Falling apart is simply that - - it is something you do to realize just how whole you used to be. And it is something that has to happen before you can pick up the pieces again.