Reluctant Achiever

I have never been good at accepting accolades. I probably deserve around 95% of the praises I've been showered with not only because I tend to kill myself to achieve even the impossible but more importantly, that I achieve them without actually dying.. it's just that I often get embarassed when I am recognized for doing something excellent. Call it Pinoy attitude.. call it irrational humility .. i don't get it. Why am I being praised for doing something that everybody should be doing in the first place????

Jeezz....

Superficial

In the silence of shadows lie
a thousand thoughts
Spring is heavy with regretful growth
A stillness lives in the thrashing of the waves
A smile is painted by sadness too deep for tears.

Nothing is ever as it looks.

A not-so-recent random thought

Falling Apart

When your heart makes a grand somersault, you cannot really stop from falling. And when your mind starts to spin, there’s no stopping the momentum. When you start to fall apart, the pieces will break no matter how you fight it.

So if you need to fall apart, fall apart into a million pieces - - it does not mean that you are brittle. It does not mean that you are any less strong. It does not even mean that you are defeated. Falling apart is simply that - - it is something you do to realize just how whole you used to be. And it is something that has to happen before you can pick up the pieces again.